Happiness here i come

It is soooo much easier to be depressed in life, specially on the holiday season when the solitude hits and u feel unconfortable with yourself and how the year turned out.
I actually have a lot to be thankful for, and my biggest new years resolution is to be less angry and be happier. Cuz ive realized that it TRULY is easier to be depressed but laugter and happiness can be just around the corner if u embrace it and make the effort to keep it.
Im probably going to get sad and anxious after this blog anyway but ill be trying really hard to only have my 5 seconds of self pity and then a laugh.
My new year's eve plans didnt turn out as i wanted, turns out i had an amazing 2011 to 2012 transition,  so i was hoping to repeat it this year but after no plans that could fulfill my need for party and celebration i have been left to dinner with my mom, just us two.And i dont know if ill go out after dinner cuz im not very happy to leave mama alone at the house. Soooo ill probably end up resenting this new year's eve and the entire 2013 cuz thats what hapens to me. What i do on the new years eve defines what ill do the whole year.
Fuck.
Ok. Ill keep working on my mood improvement. Remember to be less angry and be happier.
So what if i have no plans for this night. Ill enjoy it with my mom which is something new too.